So I never really thought this would be that fun, but hey we'll try it. Maybe it will help me get a lot of stuff out and my mind will be back to being sane again. A lot has happened in the past year for me that I could never have imagined.
Last January I was in the hospital, and was told I could have died if I didn't come in when I did. Yeah let me tell you how scary it is to know that you could have died and the things that go through your mind when you are by yourself. Well fortunately or unfortunately I survived after two months of hospital and home R and R. Went back to work and a few weeks later my mom had back surgery. Well it took a lot out of my parents and sisters and me. While mom was recovering, my grandpa got sick, unfortunately for all of us he never got better. Several weeks went by and he passed away the day after Easter. We all were shocked at how fast he went, but we were happy that he was not in pain any longer.
After grandpa died, Emmanuel and I separated. This was a pretty tough time for Juliana and me and for sure Emmanuel. We have been struggling a lot on working together to raise our little Angel together. It's been a struggle with what to do and what needs to be done properly. We will make it, because I know there is a purpose for all of this happening. With all the struggle going on, my dad decided that he needed to have surgery, so you can only imagine the struggle with him recovering and having him do the harvest. He recovered very well. What a strong old man. shhhhhhhhhhh don't tell him I said that! He made me really proud of how he fought back so hard to recover just so he could sit n the combine and harvest the beans and corn. Pretty impressive for a 67 year old man that had gone through a major heart surgery.
What a year it has been for us. I pray that 2008 will go smoothly and maybe we will be blessed with good news and happiness. I did learn a lot from the past year. No one makes the future for you; you work for success because you want to, not to impress someone who can one minute decide to leave you eating their dust. I look at myself and see that I have changed a lot the past several years and one day I'm going to go back to the girl again, but for now I’m going to accept who I am and love what I have accomplished through everything I have gone through. If I could go through losing the love of my life and still be able to face this world, I know for a fact I can do anything I want to do, and will do anything I want to do to be successful in life.
Maybe there is a purpose in life for me, I am not sure as of right now what that is, but you know what, I don't want to cut it short to never find out. Maybe my purpose is to be a mother to my daughter, or a person who can be an example to someone else, I don't know but I'm going to live to enjoy life as it comes. Maybe I’m, just an extra in someone's movie but you know what, extras are also important in the movie.
I do feel better, and who knows maybe I will write more and get a few things off my chest.
Kalaiselvi
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